So the Mom is not doing well, she has been up most of the night due to not being able to breathe because she has fluid build up under her lungs due to her heart failure. Such a touchy subject here… to give morphine so she relaxes or not to because of the stigma that my father has, “they are just going to kill her with morphine”.

She was fine a couple of days ago, how fast that can change with old people. I wish our last days could be different. My mom and dad are people of God, why can’t He just let my mom sleep and go in peace? Why does she have to go through all this discomfort and fear? Why, why, why?

I’m so tired…and I can’t find rest. Why doesn’t the big Man hear me?