No body tells you this

Some days are so hard, I’ve been so tired lately and my stomach hurts most of the time. I feel like I am spiraling out of control, I’m so angry, why am I so angry? All I can think of is that I have some serious childhood issues that I have not dealt with. Here is what I think is the issue… my folks are very religious  (they say they are not but they are), my dad is a preacher man and my mom is the wife of a preacher man. They have always been very controlling and think they can still be with me. I have informed them many times that they cannot push this belief on me any more and all they can do is pray for me. And guess what this does… absolutely nothing. For some reason they believe that only they know how to live the right way, even “those” people from other religions don’t do it right. They are so exhausting. I have felt “not good enough” most of my life due to them and you think I would be past this by now. But I am not. Since I moved home to take care of them, I can’t even put into words the emotional roller coaster that I have been on. I swear, I use to be a nice person.